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Hello Stacey, you know me right? this is the whats so called open letter to you. I know you read this even though I'm still typing and you know what comes in my mind. Every word I said, for exact.

I want to be friends. I'm tired for fighting. You are my closest frenemy. I'm honestly tired of what you do with the real me. You couldn't take over me just like that. We could work it out somehow. My teenage year is a living hell already but please can you not be the one who star the fire? I lost myself sometimes because of you. Sometimes I woke up being like you, Stacey, for 3 years. You go mad over someone and sometimes you sit right back in the corner of my room crying out loud. I can't help that. I wish I could Stacey, believe me.

But yes I know, other that than, you help me through the phase, through the struggling I've had. You create such a deep dark version of me, while the real me create a neon light version of me, the real me.

With this post, I hope that we could go further more. Become one self, not teared apart.

With love,

Nanda.

Ultraviolence.

Hello.

It's been awhile, but i'm here again. Busy with stuff (school shits and friends and yeah lots of project.)

I recently bought Ultraviolence by Lana Del Rey. Gotta love the album because I used to think that Lana voice wasnt that good and she was overrated because all of the little monsters are talking about her back in Born To Die era but I'll give it a try and she is amazing. Her songs are so dark which is completely opposite thing where I usually listen to fun songs (Lady Gaga, Neon Trees, The 1975, The Killers, Fun., etc.) 

Ultraviolence is very dark. It's not like the BTD album. BTD was like a mixture of fun and sad and while you listen to BTD you're like yeah lets strip down and wear lingerie while you can being sad at the same time. In Ultraviolence, well, let's say you're going to have a breakdown while listening to it. Like you're thinking what the hell are you doing back then, all the mistakes you made and never realize it was stupid.

My fav songs are Brooklyn Baby and Sad Girl. The lyrics are so dark than the others (for me, though.) But all of the songs here are amazing. The West Coast radio edit version is something you should listen all day and put it into playlist.